Elizabeth

Elizabeth, the girl to kiss

When she’s gone, she will be missed

Elizabeth, the girl to hold

When she’s near, I’m no longer cold

Her smile is the prettiest in the land

Catch her… if you can

Elizabeth, the girl to know

Her beauty is more than what is shown

Elizabeth, the girl to love

An angel sent from above

Her smile is the prettiest in the land

Catch her… if you can

Never be the same again

Her smile is the prettiest in the land

Her smile will kill you where you stand

Catch her if you can

Nothing

Nothing is here

Something stirs

A rising inside

Of falling behind

Nothing is clear

Something is near

Fire burning bright

Lights dimmed tonight

And all I wanted was you

To give in to a love so true

Nothing is fear

Something is clear

A moment to shine

And take back what’s mine

Nothing is pain

Something’s to blame

A heart filled with doubt

So heavy somehow

And it’s too much, too much to take

Unhappiness too hard to fake

Nothing’s in the past

Some things do last

Memories divine

A heart mended in time

And all I wanted was you
To give in to a love that's so true

And for you to love me too

Fine Romance

You’ve said your goodbyes

Without a single word

Your heart broke to pieces

Without a single tear

At least I never saw one

I’ve begged you to stay

To give me another chance

I told you I’m sorry

But you knew better then

At least I hoped you did

You didn’t know I loved you

I should have told you when I had the chance

You didn’t know I loved you

Maybe if you did you would take me back

Maybe you just hate me

For all of my stupid shit

I pushed you and pulled

Until you felt the need to quit

I guess it just wasn’t meant to be

I guess you just had enough of me

If you only knew of what was going on

You would see and understand what was wrong

You didn’t know I loved you

I should have told you when I had the chance

You didn’t know I loved you

Maybe if you did you would take me back

You didn’t know I loved you

I knew I did when we shared our first dance

You didn’t know I loved you

I’m sorry to have ruined our fine romance

Delusions of Grandeur

Oh, how I thought it would and it could be this way

Oh, how I thought it would and it could be okay

Oh, how I thought it would and it could be the same

 

 

No, never, no

Never no, no, no

 

 

Oh, how I thought I would and could be the blame

Oh, how I thought I would and could live in shame

Oh, how I thought I would and could be so afraid

 

 

No, never, no

Never no, no, no

 

 

Oh, how I thought it would and it could end this way

Oh, how I thought it would and it could end today

Oh, how I thought it would and it could drift far away

 

 

No, never, no

Never no, no, no

No, never, no

Never no, no, no, no

 

 

Oh, oh, oh, oh

Oh, oh, oh, oh

 

 

A Woman

I'm in love with a woman

A woman I barely know

And it is because of this woman

I can never go home

I'm in love with a woman

A woman so beautiful

Just the smile from this woman

Is enough to damn my soul

I'm in love with a woman

A woman that breaks my heart

But it's because of this woman

The pieces are no longer apart

The stitches may tear

Open, to expose the wounds

Of past hurts and cares

That are more than just a bruise

But soon to mend just like anew

I'm in love with a woman

A woman I'll never truly know

And it is because of this woman

I've learned to breathe so very slow

I'm in love with a woman

A woman so wonderful

Just the eyes of this woman

Is enough to make me feel whole

I'm in love with a woman

A woman who stole my heart

And it is because of this woman

I've found my way back to the start

A place of forgiveness

Freedom, love, and peace

No fear or worry

Just curiosity

Now I can be happy

I'm in love with a woman

Do you think she loves me too?

Oh if only this woman

Didn't have to choose

I'm in love with a woman

Forever, I'll love her so

But it's because of this woman

I must learn to let her go

The stitches may tear

Open, to expose the wounds

Of past hurts and cares

That are more than just a bruise

But soon to mend just like anew

Answers To Nothing

Answers to nothing

Leads to everything

Becoming something

Can only mean suffering

Relentless, you are

Most cryptic by far

No escaping this

Fate sealed with a sinful kiss

No more searching

Tired from reaching

Done with the stitching

Gone with all the bleeding

Merciless, you are

Most savage by far

No escaping this

Secret kept behind a sinful kiss

Answers to nothing

Lead to everything

Becoming something

Can only mean suffering

Unforgiving, you are

Most selfish by far

No escaping this

Death by the most sinful kiss

No more searching

Tired from reaching

Done with the stitching

Gone with all the bleeding

... answers to nothing...

Don't Leave Me Here

I miss you when you're gone
Wish I could be in your arms
Hope you hurry coming home

Take my breath away
Like you do when you say
"There is nothing to fear, my love."

Please, don't leave me here, in the dark
Don't let the fear put out our spark
I've placed my heart in your hands

In truth, I never knew
Just how hard it would be for you
Now the world knows our news

Now as if you didn't know
I'm not okay and it shows
Now the story must come to a close

Please, don't leave me here, in the dark
Don't let the fear put out our spark
I've placed my life in your hands

If you cannot believe
Here with you is when I'm most happy
So please stay here with me

I miss you when you're gone
Wish I could be in your arms
Hope you hurry coming home

Please, don't leave me here, in the dark
Don't let the fear put out our spark
I've placed my heart in your hands

How To Love

I wish you could stay just as you are

In this moment you are your best by far

This day is perfect to repeat over again

Let's record it and send it to all our friends

To watch and learn; this is how to love

This is how you know when you're in love

I wish we could stay just as we are

In this moment I am my best by far

This night is perfect to repeat over again

Let's record it and send it to all our friends

To watch and learn; this is how you love

This is when you know all you need is love

I wish I could stay just as I am right now

In this moment we are at our best somehow

This love is perfect to repeat over again

Let's record it and send it to all our friends

To watch and learn; this is true love

This is the love of all love

This is how you love

All you need is love

...this love is perfect to repeat over again...

The Tears You Cry

What a life

To walk this road alone

What a way

To endure this journey home

I am afraid but I am strong

What a day

To spend my time alone

What a night

To dream in sleep so cold

I am afraid but my strength will hold

The tears you cry

Kill me inside

Always

Never knew

That I could feel like this

Never thought

That you would be missed

I am afraid but I will carry on

Never thought

It would end like this

Never knew

How much I need your kiss

I am afraid but I will move on

The tears you cry

Kill me inside

I'm sorry

The pain you feel

Will never heal

I should know

Cause' the tears you cry

Kill me inside

Always

What a summer to remember

What a year to never forget

Though you try, I never will

Cause' the tears you cry

Kill me inside

I'm sorry

The pain you feel

Will never heal

I should know

Cause' the tears you cry

Kill me inside

Always

Heaven Sent

I see beauty in your eyes

Diamond stars in dark skies

Sparkling with the sun's kiss

On all of ocean's bliss

A heaven sent not to be missed

A heaven sent not to be missed

Oh what a sight to behold

I see beauty in your smile

Mesmerizing all the while

Paralyzing with a single kiss

Filled with all of ocean's bliss

A heaven sent not to be missed

A heaven sent not to be missed

Oh what a sight to behold

Oh what a sight to behold

I see beauty in your voice

Paints over all other noise

A sound you wish you could kiss

The moment you first hear it

A heaven sent not to be missed

A heaven sent not to be missed

Oh what a sight to behold

I see beauty in the way you move

Makes me forget all I knew

I try and fail but it's a hit and miss

My salvation lies deep within your kiss

A heaven sent not to be missed

A heaven sent not to be missed

Oh what a sight to behold

Brand New Love

Knees so weak

Can only barely speak

My body paralyzed

As I stare into your eyes

Like seeing for the first time

A kiss so sweet

From you, is all I'll need

Your arms around me tight

Sends my heart flying high

Like breathing for the first time

A hug so warm

To keep me safe from harm

Your eyes burning bright

Please, take me home tonight

Like living for the first time

A fine romance

In this brand new love

A second chance

To be so keen on

A love so brand new

All I ever wanted was you

A love so pure

You have become my cure

The perfect remedy

For all my haunted dreams

Like sleeping for the first time

A life so grand

Together we take our stand

For everyone to see

As we embrace our destiny

Like love for the first time

A fine romance

In this brand new love

A second chance

To be so keen on

A love so brand new

All I ever needed was you

A marriage so strong

Never will you stand alone

Together we'll share

A life of love without fear

Like happiness for the first time

If I Could Fall

I’m afraid to fall in love

More afraid to let you go

And watch you walk away

Please don’t let me go

I can’t do this alone

If you leave me here

What would I have to show?

If I could fall

I would, in your arms

Won’t let you go

Until comes the dawn 

And I’ll kiss you awake from rest

You have shown me truth

The trust you gave I abused

Not much left from to choose

Everyone’s waiting to know

What we’ll do

If you’ll stay or if you’ll go

What would I do without you?

If I could fall

I would, in your arms

Won’t let you go

Until comes the dawn  

And I’ll kiss you awake from rest

If you could only see

Here in your arms

Is where I’m meant to be

So tightly hold on to me

Why am I so cold?

I need your fire to keep me warm

And keep my heart beating strong

If I could fall

I would, in your arms

Won’t let you go

Until comes the dawn  

And I’ll kiss you awake from rest

The One

When we met
Your eyes lit up my world
A smile that stopped time
I wished you were mine


Crossed my heart
Hoped not to fall
In love tonight
My heart flew so high
I thought I would die


A night to remember


I have waited every day
For a love so true
Spent my nights wide awake
Praying for you
To save me from... a life without you
Could you be the one?

Colors blur
Into a love so pure
My head spinning now
Our dreams come true somehow


Cross my heart
Hope to fall
In love tonight
My heart soaring high
Now that you are mine


A day to remember


I have waited every day
For a love so true
Spent my nights wide awake
Praying for you
To save me from... a life without you
Could you be the one?

And all along you were there

Waiting for me

Spent your nights wondering

If you’ll find me

And save me from… a life without you

Could I be the one?

A summer to remember
A year to remember


I had waited every day
For a love so true
Spent nights wide awake
Praying for you
To save me from... a life without you
Could you be the one?

And all along you were there

Waiting for me

Spent your nights wondering

If you’ll find me

And save me from… a life without you

Could I be the one?

Love To Tell You

Here, I wait

There, you go

There, you stay

Again, I'll never know

There, is your pain

Here, is your name

Scarred on my heart

Imprinted on my soul

There, you stay

Here, I go

Here, you say

I don't care to know

Here, is my pain

There, is my name

Scarred on your heart

Stained on your soul

If you'd ask I'd love to tell you

If you'd ask I'd love to tell you

If you'd ask I'd love to tell you

But you don't care anymore

If you'd care you would know

If you'd care you would know

If you'd care you would know

We've both been here before

I don't have to wait

You don't have to go

But if you stay

We could both know

There is no more pain

Gone with all the blame

Along with all the shame

That used to be your name

If you'd ask I'd love to tell you

If you'd ask I'd love to tell you

If you'd ask I'd love to tell you

But you don't care anymore

If you'd care you would know

If you'd care you would know

If you'd care you would know

We've both been here before

There, you stay

Here, I go

Here, I say

I hope one day you'll know

Here, I stay

There, you go

Forgiven but never forgotten

Forever I'll love you so

Nothing After All

Oh how I long to run into the river

And feel the cool water bring me a shiver

The sun kisses your face as I rise into your embrace

Oh, today is filled with such promise

With you in my arms there can be no rest

With you here I am at my best

Oh, not like any other experience

The times you push and pull are fast

In the night you fear we won't last

But here, I know things can be different

Where we are one and happy from the beginning

And what we fear will be like nothing after all

Oh heavy doubts wash into shores somehow

Birds feast on all our secret thoughts of now

Oh help me see I'm not afraid to be happy

Fires burn across our sky

And all the while you wonder why

Oh, not like any other experience

When you push I'll pull you close

But it's when I push you fear most

But here, I know things can be different

Where we are one and happy from the beginning

And what we fear will be like nothing after all

Please bleed this silent mystery

Into a scary bed-time story

Then read to me our adventures

So I can tell you what we have learned

Cause here, I know things can be different

Where we are one and happy from the beginning

And what we fear will be like nothing after all

If You're Wondering

I could fall in love with you, if you let me

I could be yours, if you'll have me

My heart could beat for you, and only you

I could be happy with you, if you let me

I could be complete, just set me free

And my heart will fill with love for you

Tell me I'm yours, if I desire

Tell me you're mine, if I should choose

Tell me you want me like I want you

I could kiss and hold you, if you let me

You could take my hand and runaway with me

And my eyes will see no other but you

I could know your body, if you let me

You could know mine, if you should choose

And I'll spend my life loving you

Tell me I'm yours, if I desire

Tell me you're mine, if I should choose

Tell me you want me like I want you

Tell me I am what you seek

Tell me you are what I need

Tell me you need me like I need you

If you're wondering... I want you to

Tell me I'm yours, if I desire

Tell me you're mine, if I should choose

Tell me you want me like I want you

Tell me I am what you seek

Tell me you are what I need

Tell me you need me like I need you

I could be happy with you, if you let me

I could be complete, just set me free

And my heart will fill with love for you

Awakening

"Don't want to talk about it."

No one cares to know the truth

"Don't want to hear about it."

Not until it happens to you

And I hear what you're saying

But I see what you're doing too

And this isn't what you want to hear

But you know it's the truth

Now watch the masses scream out loud,

"Leave it alone!"

I'm going to talk about it

No Country can hold me back

You're going to hear about it

And no army can prevent that

And if I catch you lying to yourself

I'll bleed a cure out of you

Now try to deny the truth

It's just what you do 

And all the masses cry out loud,

"Save me, now!"

I'm going to use my voice

I'm not afraid to speak my mind

I'm going to make a choice

And watch you sweat 'til the end of time

And you're screaming 'til you're bleeding

As your crying out for your lord

But you'll bleed all through the night

'Til you think no more

And the blood on your hands will stain

And become all you know

I'm going to use my voice

I strongly suggest you do too

I'm going to make a choice

To always speak the truth

Miss You

I miss you when you're here

I miss you when you're gone

Oh the day feels so long

Without you

I missed you then

I miss you much more now

Wish you were here somehow

But it's alright

I feel you in my bones

In my blood

I feel you in my skin

In my mind

I feel you in my heart

In my veins

The warmth from you

I feel always

I miss you when you're near

But mostly when you're far

And all through the silent dark

Of this empty room

I miss you every day

I miss you every night

I even miss our fights

I would fight to have you now

I feel you in my bones

In my blood

I feel you in my skin

In my mind

I feel you in my heart

In my veins

The warmth from you

I feel always

I wish you knew

I wish you'd known how I felt

But now I just wish you are well

And hope you know I miss you

Cure

Tell me I'm wrong

Tell me I'm crazy

Worried over nothing

I am just scared

Don't make me laugh

I must be dreaming

All that I see is really not there

The stillness speaks

Deep within me

I open my eyes

Now I'm aware

My hand reaches

Out before you

Lost beyond this nightmare

Run and hide

When you're scared

Seek to find

When you're prepared

You must endure

The suffering for this cure

Tell me I'm right
Tell me I'm not crazy
Just a boy
Falling in love
Don't make me cry
I can not be dreaming
All that I want and need
Is here, with you

Run and hide
When you're scared
Seek to find
When you're prepared
You must endure
The suffering for this cure

Close the blinds

It's too bright

Stay here

With me tonight

You must endure

The love for this cure

Tell me I'm wrong

Tell me I'm crazy

A foolish boy

Falling in love

Don't make me cry

I can not be dreaming

All that I want and need

Is here, with you

Sad Song

This, of all nights
I am home, alone
This, of all days
I wake up, cold
Now, I’ve cried too much
Can’t save my soul, alone
I need somebody to hold

This, of all places
I am reminded of you
Now, of all moments
I find strength to choose
This, of all places
I can’t bear to lose
A place filled with memories of you

When the tears have dried
The knots come undone
How could you know?
You couldn’t have known
And if you asked
I wouldn’t have told
When the tears have dried
When the pain subsides
The knots come undone

Your skin, of all skin
I crave yours most
Your lips, of all lips
I long for most
Your love of all love
I desire most
A life with you, so beautiful

But this, of all nights
I am home, alone
This, of all days
I wake up, cold
Now, I’ve cried too much
Can’t save my soul, alone
I need somebody to hold

When the tears have dried
The knots come undone
How could you know?
You couldn’t have known
And if you asked
I wouldn’t have told
When the tears have dried
When the pain subsides
The knots come undone

The battle for the cure
The war for the girl
I’ll lose to let go
So I can be reborn… again

If you could only see
The scars you left me
From all that used to be
You’ll know my pain is yours

And when the tears have dried
The knots come undone
But how could you know?
You couldn’t have known
And if you asked
I wouldn’t have told
But when the tears have dried
Know the pain subsides
And the knots come undone
But if you stay tonight
There will be none

San Francisco

Lady love

All my life

Running scared

Awaiting Christ

Nevermore uncertain, my love

Scream with me one last time

You make me feel, you make me feel

Strong as I feel

You make me feel

Beneath the shade, amongst the stars aligned

Another moment lost in time

In the night we'll fall and rise

Next the uncertain

Soon fades to light

You make me feel, you make me feel

Strong as I feel

You make me feel

Lately I just hurt when you leave

Die inside when you say goodbye to me

It means the world to hear you say my name

But when you smile I fall from grace

A daily cloud hangs over me

The sight of you is all I need

You brought me the light

Let's watch each other sleep tonight

You make me feel, you make me feel

Strong as I feel

You make me feel

Whispers Through Silence

I have lived, loved, been lost, and lost that which I had held closest to my heart... that which meant everything to me. I have suffered, been broken, made mistakes, laughed, and cried. For the bad, I have no one to blame but myself. The pain and guilt I feel for my errors will never subside. They can only lay dormant until I am reminded of them again, for they are now a part of me much like I am a part of this world.

I have known love, real love twice in my life but I chose to walk away from it and to let it slip through my grasp. I was a fool; so very stupid and oblivious that I couldn't see what I had until it wasn't there anymore. Then, the pieces of the puzzle began to make sense. Once I saw my past choices clearly and realized the reality and truth in their significance, I finally understood. Now I have learned.

All I want to do is apologize, make amends, and atone for the evil things I did and said. It matters not if I am forgiven. I deserve punishment.

Life is strange. It is funny.

When the darkness rises the light fades away, but in time the light will shine bright again.

...

That time is now.

...

If home is where the heart is, my heart is far from reach and home is the only place I may find peace. Thousand of miles separate me from home and only one complication prevents me from being where I belong.

The keys no longer belong to me. Every locked door and every hidden room that protect my secrets are now left in the hands of fragility, beauty, truth, and love.

I miss you.

...

Again

I thought this would never happen again

I thought we would always be friends

I thought our bond was stronger than this

Now you’re gone and you won’t be missed

I will not cry

 I will not shed a tear tonight

My heart is broken

You’ve said good-bye

For the both of us

I will not try to deny

I’m not fine

I’m not fine

I thought your promises meant much more

I thought something was there that wasn’t there before

I thought we finally had our perfect ending

A happily ever after with a new beginning

I will not cry

 I will not shed a tear tonight

My heart is broken

You’ve said good-bye

For the both of us

I will not try to deny

I’m not fine

I’m not fine

I’m not okay

Things will be forever changed

We’ll go our separate ways

I’ll count the days

Until I die

I will not try to deny

I’m not fine

I’m not fine

I’m not okay

I’m not fine

Blood Drops

I’ve watched you cry many times before

I’ve watched you walk right out the door

My heart caves in and my knees buckle to the floor

I know now sorry just won’t do

But darling you know I love you

There is no one who can ever replace you

Time stops, my heart beats only for you

Nothing exists, when I am near you

Nothing matters, nothing but and only you

So, I’ll cry myself to sleep

Wondering if you’re thinking of me

The way I’m thinking of you

Missing how it used to be

Now, I’ll sing it loud for you to hear

Wherever you go, may it sound clear

Don’t give up on me my dear

There is nothing left to fear

Time stops, my heart beats only for you

Nothing exists, when I am near you

Nothing matters, nothing but and only you

So, I’ll cry myself to sleep

Wondering if you’re thinking of me

The way I’m thinking of you

Missing how it used to be

All is done and over

All is now in the past

I’ve learned my lesson

Nothing ever truly lasts

Except my love for you

Let it fall

Let it fall

Let it fall and rise inside again

So, I’ll cry myself to sleep

Wondering if you’re thinking of me

The way I’m thinking of you

Missing how it used to be

Time stops, my heart beats only for you

Nothing exists, when I am near you

Nothing matters, nothing but and only you

Blood drops, my veins burn, smoldering

Twisted knots, my stomach aches, throbbing

Cold envelops, my body’s will relinquishes, resigns

Death Is Not The End

Watch yourself disappear

Understand the lies you hear

Contemplate the suicide

Of this the silence deep inside

Know that which matters most

Forced to face the silent ghost

Contemplate the suicide

Of the sickness deep inside

Listen to the advice you give

See the reason why you live

Contemplate the suicide

Of the doubt deep inside

Your purpose, you can’t deny

Love is not the reason why

Contemplate the suicide

Of the fear deep inside

It’s okay to fail and fall

Don’t stop till’ you conquer all

Contemplate the suicide

Of the demon deep inside

Life is more than about your mistakes

It’s about the risks you take

Take your promise to your grave

Know that you are not insane

Just open minded and free-thinking

Opportunity is yours for the taking

Contemplate the suicide

Of the sadness deep inside