Sad Song

This, of all nights
I am home, alone
This, of all days
I wake up, cold
Now, I’ve cried too much
Can’t save my soul, alone
I need somebody to hold

This, of all places
I am reminded of you
Now, of all moments
I find strength to choose
This, of all places
I can’t bear to lose
A place filled with memories of you

When the tears have dried
The knots come undone
How could you know?
You couldn’t have known
And if you asked
I wouldn’t have told
When the tears have dried
When the pain subsides
The knots come undone

Your skin, of all skin
I crave yours most
Your lips, of all lips
I long for most
Your love of all love
I desire most
A life with you, so beautiful

But this, of all nights
I am home, alone
This, of all days
I wake up, cold
Now, I’ve cried too much
Can’t save my soul, alone
I need somebody to hold

When the tears have dried
The knots come undone
How could you know?
You couldn’t have known
And if you asked
I wouldn’t have told
When the tears have dried
When the pain subsides
The knots come undone

The battle for the cure
The war for the girl
I’ll lose to let go
So I can be reborn… again

If you could only see
The scars you left me
From all that used to be
You’ll know my pain is yours

And when the tears have dried
The knots come undone
But how could you know?
You couldn’t have known
And if you asked
I wouldn’t have told
But when the tears have dried
Know the pain subsides
And the knots come undone
But if you stay tonight
There will be none

San Francisco

Lady love

All my life

Running scared

Awaiting Christ

Nevermore uncertain, my love

Scream with me one last time

You make me feel, you make me feel

Strong as I feel

You make me feel

Beneath the shade, amongst the stars aligned

Another moment lost in time

In the night we'll fall and rise

Next the uncertain

Soon fades to light

You make me feel, you make me feel

Strong as I feel

You make me feel

Lately I just hurt when you leave

Die inside when you say goodbye to me

It means the world to hear you say my name

But when you smile I fall from grace

A daily cloud hangs over me

The sight of you is all I need

You brought me the light

Let's watch each other sleep tonight

You make me feel, you make me feel

Strong as I feel

You make me feel

Whispers Through Silence

I have lived, loved, been lost, and lost that which I had held closest to my heart... that which meant everything to me. I have suffered, been broken, made mistakes, laughed, and cried. For the bad, I have no one to blame but myself. The pain and guilt I feel for my errors will never subside. They can only lay dormant until I am reminded of them again, for they are now a part of me much like I am a part of this world.

I have known love, real love twice in my life but I chose to walk away from it and to let it slip through my grasp. I was a fool; so very stupid and oblivious that I couldn't see what I had until it wasn't there anymore. Then, the pieces of the puzzle began to make sense. Once I saw my past choices clearly and realized the reality and truth in their significance, I finally understood. Now I have learned.

All I want to do is apologize, make amends, and atone for the evil things I did and said. It matters not if I am forgiven. I deserve punishment.

Life is strange. It is funny.

When the darkness rises the light fades away, but in time the light will shine bright again.

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That time is now.

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If home is where the heart is, my heart is far from reach and home is the only place I may find peace. Thousand of miles separate me from home and only one complication prevents me from being where I belong.

The keys no longer belong to me. Every locked door and every hidden room that protect my secrets are now left in the hands of fragility, beauty, truth, and love.

I miss you.

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